Day 19!!!

Today was weird.

Not because of anything particular either, just felt off kilter all day. But food wise it could have been much worse. I did do my food diary, but I ate everything in an unusual order so it makes more sense to rewrite it below:

• Up at 6:45 – mum forgot her costume so because I’m lame I didn’t go by myself. Instead I prepped breakfast and lunch, tidied the kitchen and worked from home for the morning.
• 8:08 – breakfast – oats, coconut milk, frozen cherries (all in the microwave for a couple of minutes). Cup of coffee with milk. This is an hour earlier than I usually eat breakfast, but I’m not mad at myself for this at this point. I felt good and ate it slowly starting work that I’d planed to do that am. I was very much enjoying eating breakfast at home and not facing a 11 hour day at work.

• 10:30 – 12:30 – 4 or 5 apricot power-balls (side note I think the apricot power-balls – supposed to be pistachio – were way too sweet and soft) 1/2 avocado, chunk of Parmesan, some sweet chilli sauce (I must throw this out on the way to bed). To be honest I didn’t feel great. This is the time period when I started to feel odd and I think I reached for food because of this. But it defiantly didn’t make me feel any better or more aligned. In-fact I think i started to feel queasy. – serious regrets.
• 13:30 – I need to set off to the studio and am aware I haven’t had lunch. But I now know I’m feeling queasy, but also am searching for anything other than food. So I used the punnet of strawberries that need to be used, the coconut milk that need to be used and some yogurt then blitzed it. Didn’t drink more than a couple of mouthfuls.

• 15:44 – finally feel hungry! So ate the chicken noodle soup I made this am. – Soooo goood!!!!!!! I love this meal. Felt good afterwards, but worried about my timings on food still.

• 19:30 – weigh in – maintained. I was hoping/expecting this as I know Ive not had the best of weeks. At the same time as being relieved for not putting on, and feeling that maintaining is a fair reflection of my week, there is still a part of me that’s disappointed. Then there is the fact that the numbers are not the be all and end all.
• 21:45 – finally finished cooking dinner. SW finished late, so I was already thinking it was too late to eat, however I knew that I wouldn’t prep breakfast or lunch for tomorrow I didn’t cook something. I was keen not to wake up again tomorrow with no food prepared. I may have had to fool myself to get it all done, but I now have 3 meals for tomorrow so tomorrow will be quite easy. Hopefully. I drank the rest of the strawberry smoothie instead before writing this little marathon 🙂