Was messy and horrendous, WARNING contains things I never share with anyone and habits I’m deeply ashamed of – there’s a reason it’s called the honesty diet.
Woke up like:
As in could not get up, missed the run in the pool and felt :
Sh*t. Turns out my house mate had left the gas for the grill on, so may have been a little poisoned. Any way felt rubbish and my head decides the best way to deal with this is to issue an immediate:
demand. So because I was feeling rubbish in every sense of the word I did.
2 big bars of chocolate , 1 pack of toffees, 6 flat bagels with butter, 1 pack of hot dogs, 1 medium pasty, one tub of cheese spread 1 packet of pick and mix sweets. *shame shame shame* and 2 power balls.
felt sleepy all afternoon at work and when I went home
then ate the leftovers from above (1/2 a bagel and 3 sausages), 1 brownie and a tub of ben and jerries. *shame shame shame*. Then at 9:30 went up stairs to bed, via the loo to clean my teeth etc. Then my body decides to
press evacuate. And everything comes back up. This doesn’t usually happen. Occasionally my body decides to have a cleanse (I think due to meds etc), but I think this was genuinely a rejection of what I have consumed, even though, believe it or not, this is less than I have consumed on previous bad days.
Anyway this is me currently:
and the only reason I’ve written this is in the vain hope that I have a better for me day tomorrow and am able to put stuff in my body that is actually good for me.
Diary of a fat seamstress 