This is me. A 32 year old female who swore she’d never write a blog.
But I’m desperate.
I managed to somewhat successfully build a sewing business (hence the seamstress part) however I have bee significantly less successful with my weight loss journey. I’ve tried everything, all the fad diets and weight loss clubs/plans, shakes and normal food. I’ve been trying since I was sixteen, but don’t remember being a normal weight. I seem to be good for a couple of weeks, but then things go seriously awry.
So I stand here age 32 – with a significant part of my life having been put on hold until I was a normal weight. At a BMI of 59.5, approximately 15stone 8lbs above what could possibly be considered a ‘normal’ healthy weight.
I mean isn’t this picture just awful? I gotta tell you its worse from the side. Im starting to resemble a hunchback.
Theoretically its not that fact that I’m fat I have a problem with. I do not want to be a super skinny supermodel. Im fine with having a bit of squish.
What Im not happy with is the amount of things being this size stops you doing. Inside this overweight shell I am a person who would like to kyack again, I’d like to do a mudder for cancer research (you know the one with the obstacle courses). I’d like to be comfortable in planes ( I didn’t go on a plane for 8 years because of this fear of fitting in the seat). When my friends suggest hot tubs or spas I don’t want to worry about sending a flood of water everywhere, or breaking things by just sitting down or laying down.
More important to me as a seamstress is the sheer amount of fabric it takes to cover a body of this size. A person who is a size 8 can take a meter of fabric and have a lot of options. A recent draft I made for a shirt for myself would need over 3m of fabric!! Most people dream of buying stuff off the rack in normal sizes – I dream about being able to create something beautiful from a meter off cut of fabric.
I want my life back. I want to be able to do the things the slightly thinner person inside me is desperate to do.
So the latest search for the answer has led to this:
I’m digesting this for now. But it seems promising. And I’m hopeful that is Lisa Riley can loose as much weight as I have to loose, perhaps I can too.
Diary of a fat seamstress 